Zane has had a good couple of days. He gets stronger walking each day and is now not using a walker at all- we just give him a little support by holding one arm. His arms are coming along slower, but each day we do see small improvements! He had some difficulty yesterday keeping food down, but seemed much better today. We're slowly trying to help him get his appetite back, and be able to eat more complex foods. The sooner he can increase his caloric intake, the sooner he can get the feeding tube removed.
He is scheduled for surgery for his armpits on Tuesday. They will be doing a procedure to give him a greater range of motion called a release. This will include a small amount of additional grafting. He will have to be splinted up like a scarecrow for a few days to promote proper healing and prevent contractures. This surgery is the main reason Zane is still in ICU- they feel he would do best with more attention after the surgery.
Zane has had moments that have been tough on him as he thinks about the long road ahead, but we had a great talk and prayer last night and he was feeling much better today. Certainly, we all have needed to have moments where we just hurt. I don't think it would be healthy if we ignored the fact that this was, indeed, a tragedy. Accepting the hurt is so important in finding peace with the situation. I shared with Zane some of my own journey that went on while he was sleeping. I've learned that I need to really feel things in order to get over them. I needed to take a moment to just cry or just be mad. But, I surrendered my hurt or anger to God during those times and he gave me peace. I had my 'moment' and God allowed me to move on. I don't want everyone to think we've all been inhumanly strong. God has definitely given us all a strength we never would have known ourselves capable of, but he also allowed us to deal with our human emotions in a healthy way. It's a lot of pressure to feel you have to be 'a rock' all the time. That's because humans were never meant to be 'the rock'. Jesus Christ is the ROCK that we run to; HE is the one that sustains us. It is only in our utter weakness that we are truly capable of receiving a major dose of HIS supernatural strength.