Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Back Home

On October 12 I packed a suitcase with a few essentials before rushing to the airport. In that suitcase I packed Zane a pair of sweatpants, boxers, t-shirt and shoes. They took up just as much room as my own clothing, and it probably seemed silly to anyone else to bring them. At that point I had no idea if Zane would survive the trip to Boston, but I was too stubborn to accept anything but survival. I packed those clothes and vowed I would take him home in them. Well, 2 1/2 months have passed and I almost forgot that I had said that. As we boarded the airplane last Thursday I looked down and realized that Zane was wearing the sweatpants I had packed him back in October... and I was bringing him home. It was as if I felt God saying, "See? I took care of him and I brought you both back home".

The past 6 days Zane and I spent in Maine were absolutely wonderful. We enjoyed a lot of time with family and friends and had plenty of time to relax. It was great to sleep in a familiar bed, eat lots of good food, and see our normal surroundings. Zane went back into work to see his coworkers for the first time since the accident. It was so good for him, as it was for the guys too, I imagine. For a lot of them, their last memory of him was pretty scary. I'm sure it was pretty neat to see him up and doing a lot for himself.

This Christmas was so special. Christmas has always been about God's gift of His Son to the world for Zane, myself, and our families. This year I felt truly overwhelmed by God's gifts to us. Not only did He give His Son to provide a way to save our lives eternally, but he gave us the gift of Zane's continued life on this earth. For these two things I could not be more thankful. We serve an ever-faithful, generous, and caring God. We do not focus on what we've lost or what negative things Zane will have to live with. Why? Because ultimately, we have dedicated our lives to God and they are not our own. No matter what happens, we have faith that God will cause it to work together for good. So, this Christmas we thanked Him for the gifts we've received the past few months.. the gifts of closer family, a greater witness, a closer bond with each other and God, and the many changed lives that we have seen.

Zane has not had any major changes in his condition. While we were away I did his stretching that the therapists normally do so that he wouldn't lose progress. He's getting a bit more range in his arms, and his left hand is almost back to normal. He still struggles with rotation of his joints the most. The right hand is about the same.. although, the swelling has gone down considerably and he's experiencing a good bit more pain. We're hoping that these are all just signs that the feeling will come back to his hand soon.

We were scheduled to fly back on Monday afternoon, but with the blizzard the east coast got hit with, we ended up flying back this morning. The flight went well and Zane stayed relatively comfortable. It's a little funny getting extra help from people when they see me carrying all of our bags or people talking to us and getting sympathy from them. We're pretty self-sufficient people, so accepting that we need help sometimes is humbling. When we got back today Zane went straight to therapy and then got fitted for custom compression garments. The garments will help significantly with scarring and are worn for 1-2 years under regular clothing.

Zane goes in for surgery on his right arm tomorrow. He will have releases done on his wrist and elbow to release a nerve that they believe is pinched. The hope is that this will give Zane sensation back in his hand. The surgery is at 11:30 so any prayers that you could whisper would be very much appreciated. It's a relatively simple surgery, and will be done on an outpatient basis. I'll be sure to post an update when we find out the results. Thank you all again so much for your continued prayers and support. We have been so blessed by all of you. And, to those of you whom I met while home, thank you immensely for your words of encouragement. It was wonderful to see old friends and family, and great as well to meet new ones.

{a fun one with the fam.. and the animals :)}


Amy Lynn said...

What cute pictures!!! Im so happy you were able to go home TOGETHER for Christmas :) May God continue to bless you and your family..

Mildred said...

Praise the Lord that you both were able to go home for Christmas. I know you must both be overwhelmed with the outpouring of love from family and friends. May God continue to bless you in the coming year. Thank you Lord for the amazing healing that has taken place, for the dedicated medical staff, and prayers for a successful surgery tomorrow on Zane's right hand.

Sarah said...

What a lovely way to spend Christmas! It is unreal how much you and your sisters look alike and I know you hear that all the time. Sorry! ;) I love Zanes pose in the goofy picture! Shows that despite the challenges ahead he is back to his playful self! So happy for you all.

Dorothy said...

Courtney, you and Zane are looking so good! I'm glad you got to have Christmas at home! As I've told you before, my son, Joe, was burned with 200 + degree water over 65 % of his body the 26th of April. Joe's wife, my husband and I spent two months near the burn center in Augusta, GA. while Joe healed. So much of what you are writing about are just like the feelings that we experienced. Your story has been very interesting to me because of the simularities of what happens, not only the physical healing, but the also the blessings of prayers being lifted for you and your loved one, renewed closeness to your family and especially to God. I know for me, this year was the best Thanksgiving and Christmas I've had in a long time. I didn't need or desire gifts under the tree. I had already received 'the gift'! Happy New Year!

Kathysue said...

Courtney this has to be the best Christmas ever!!! So glad to see these picts and happy smiley faces. Be well and take care!! Kathysue

Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas Courtney! As I am sure others have told you, you really should compile all your postings for a book! It's been a miraculous adventure for you and Zane, thank you for remembering to include us along the way! GOd's best for 2011 :-)

Love in Christ-

Kelly Little

PS Love the pictures!

Tammy said...

This post makes my heart smile. You are blessed!

Lorraine(ME) said...

So happy to hear you had a great visit at "Home" and you even got to enjoy a blizzard! I have to thank you for sharing about your total faith in the Lord. We do have such an awesome God! Missed reading your update until this morning, just prayed for Zane's surgery as it's about 9:00 right now, and will continue to pray for wisdom for the doctor and for the Lord to allow this to work so Zane can have good use of his hand.
Love all the pictures you shared, especially the last one of you and Zane. You are both such an adorable couple! Many blessings for this coming New Year!!!!

Kate Borders said...

Been keeping up with you guys. So glad you had such a wonderful time at home with friends and family. May you continue to know God's grace and peace in abundance as you enter a new year.
Kate (Victoria's friend)

Julie Doody said...

It was a pleasure to meet you the other night at the BB game in Washburn!! You were all very sweet! It's been such a blessing to read about your faithfulness and God's AMAZING work that he has done with Zane's progress!! Our GOD is an AWESOME GOD!! I will continue to keep you ALL in my prayers and will look forward to your updates!

Take care!

Trudy said...

You all look wonderful! It is almost hard to believe that Zane is looking so handsome. If this is not absolute proof of how Awesome God is. He truly works miracles in our everyday lives.

May the new year find you both healthy and back home returning to your "normal"lives.

You and your families are such an inspiration for us all.

May God continue to bless you all.

frinds in Sherman

Anonymous said...

I thought of you often as you celebrated Christmas on the ridge. God is so good. Back in October we often wondered if Zane would be back in Mars Hill again. Will continue to pray as Zane has more surgery and therapy.

Keep looking up,


Anonymous said...

Courtney, you don't know me but I've been keeping updated on Zane's progress with your postings, which I must say, are amazing. You truly have a way with words. You are a very inspiring person and the bond you share with your husband and your mother are very admirable.

Carol said...

What a blessing!

Anonymous said...

What great pictures, Zeke would have loved to see you next time hopefully. You both look wonderful. Have a Happy New Year from Zeke and Gail

Brenda said...

Courtney and Zane, My husband and I are in Zane's parent's Sunday School class in Dayton, Ohio. Our whole class has been holding you both before our Lord these past several months. Our class is called MORE THAN CONQUERERS, and we all expected nothing less than miracles for Zane. You both have been a blessing and encouragement for me as I've read your posts. God has granted you wisdom beyond your years. Thank you for sharing, for being obedient to Him, and for NOT giving up. God is good, ALL THE TIME. Looking forward to meeting you both one day. Loving you through your parents and our Lord...Brenda Bodey