On October 12 I packed a suitcase with a few essentials before rushing to the airport. In that suitcase I packed Zane a pair of sweatpants, boxers, t-shirt and shoes. They took up just as much room as my own clothing, and it probably seemed silly to anyone else to bring them. At that point I had no idea if Zane would survive the trip to Boston, but I was too stubborn to accept anything but survival. I packed those clothes and vowed I would take him home in them. Well, 2 1/2 months have passed and I almost forgot that I had said that. As we boarded the airplane last Thursday I looked down and realized that Zane was wearing the sweatpants I had packed him back in October... and I was bringing him home. It was as if I felt God saying, "See? I took care of him and I brought you both back home".
The past 6 days Zane and I spent in Maine were absolutely wonderful. We enjoyed a lot of time with family and friends and had plenty of time to relax. It was great to sleep in a familiar bed, eat lots of good food, and see our normal surroundings. Zane went back into work to see his coworkers for the first time since the accident. It was so good for him, as it was for the guys too, I imagine. For a lot of them, their last memory of him was pretty scary. I'm sure it was pretty neat to see him up and doing a lot for himself.
This Christmas was so special. Christmas has always been about God's gift of His Son to the world for Zane, myself, and our families. This year I felt truly overwhelmed by God's gifts to us. Not only did He give His Son to provide a way to save our lives eternally, but he gave us the gift of Zane's continued life on this earth. For these two things I could not be more thankful. We serve an ever-faithful, generous, and caring God. We do not focus on what we've lost or what negative things Zane will have to live with. Why? Because ultimately, we have dedicated our lives to God and they are not our own. No matter what happens, we have faith that God will cause it to work together for good. So, this Christmas we thanked Him for the gifts we've received the past few months.. the gifts of closer family, a greater witness, a closer bond with each other and God, and the many changed lives that we have seen.
Zane has not had any major changes in his condition. While we were away I did his stretching that the therapists normally do so that he wouldn't lose progress. He's getting a bit more range in his arms, and his left hand is almost back to normal. He still struggles with rotation of his joints the most. The right hand is about the same.. although, the swelling has gone down considerably and he's experiencing a good bit more pain. We're hoping that these are all just signs that the feeling will come back to his hand soon.
We were scheduled to fly back on Monday afternoon, but with the blizzard the east coast got hit with, we ended up flying back this morning. The flight went well and Zane stayed relatively comfortable. It's a little funny getting extra help from people when they see me carrying all of our bags or people talking to us and getting sympathy from them. We're pretty self-sufficient people, so accepting that we need help sometimes is humbling. When we got back today Zane went straight to therapy and then got fitted for custom compression garments. The garments will help significantly with scarring and are worn for 1-2 years under regular clothing.
Zane goes in for surgery on his right arm tomorrow. He will have releases done on his wrist and elbow to release a nerve that they believe is pinched. The hope is that this will give Zane sensation back in his hand. The surgery is at 11:30 so any prayers that you could whisper would be very much appreciated. It's a relatively simple surgery, and will be done on an outpatient basis. I'll be sure to post an update when we find out the results. Thank you all again so much for your continued prayers and support. We have been so blessed by all of you. And, to those of you whom I met while home, thank you immensely for your words of encouragement. It was wonderful to see old friends and family, and great as well to meet new ones.